Sometimes it just looks like a mess...

I'm learning to paint. Yay me.

I'm taking an online course called "Leading a Legendary Life". We are painting our legendary selves and writing their adventures. I am absolutely loving it. We're about 7 weeks in. I have found a new passion. My soul is beaming.

I've loved creating things over the last number of years, but I always wanted to find a way to do it "better". To not "just fool around and see what happens", but to be able to have a vision and more or less see it come to life. And while I wanted tips, I sure didn't want someone telling me the right way to go about it. Or, heaven forbid, chastise me for doing it "wrong".

I'm learning a lot about painting. And life. (You could reread the previous paragraph and apply it to "life" in addition to "creating things")

This course is perfect.

I'm learning that painting is more complicated than I thought. And less complicated than I thought. And I am better at it than I expected. And I still beat myself up all the time for not being the best ever, by far, right now, hands down. As if there is some giant competition I am in and if I lose I will die.

And I am learning that life is more complicated than I thought. And less complicated than I thought. And I am better at it than I expected. And I still beat myself up all the time for not being the best ever, by far, right now, hands down. As if there is some giant competition I am in and if I lose I will die.

See where I am going?

Care to join me?

You can see the first layer of my first painting for the course below. I painted it about 6 weeks ago. It looks suspisciously like a mess. And yet it was called into being by my intuitive self and I see a lot of very cool things happening here. (Again the parallels to my life...)

And my frightened self begs me to tell you that the painting looks much different now (better?) and she hopes you'll come back and see how it all turns out... (hint: the banner above is a bit of a sneak preview)

First layer on the canvas